I have this picture on my wall. The artist is Kate Lee. She has perfectly captured how I feel when I feel my Savior’s love. His love is light to my soul. He shares it with me. It took me a long time to be able to feel it. I want to share with you how I came to be able to do that.

Evelyn, this post is dedicated to you. Thank you for asking me a question on the Questions for Kista page. It helps me become inspired to post often. Every post is filled with inspiration from God. Even if no one reads this blog, it has helped my testimony of God, Jesus Christ, and of myself as a child of God.

Over the years, feeling my Savior’s love has been here a little, there a little. The world is so loud and filled with so much distraction from the Savior and our Heavenly Parents. It isn’t very hard to get distracted. The distractions are everywhere and most especially at our fingertips with our phones.

In the book Percy Jackson and the Olympians: The Lightening Thief, Percy and his friends are on a mission. During this mission, they travel to a place called The Lotus. It is a casino. Once inside this casino, they are offered something called the lotus flower. They eat it and it is delicious. But once they eat it, their focus is immediately turned to the exciting things found all around them in the casino.

Their mission is completely forgotten. The urgency that drove them is completely gone. As they run around having so much fun in the casino, days go by. At one point, Percy’s father, Poseidon talks to him. He tells him to wake up and not eat any more of the lotus flowers.

This is all Percy needed to become alert and focused again. When The Lotus workers and waiters notice that Percy has become “awake”, they focus all of their attention on trying to get him to eat another lotus flower.

It is this focused attention that confirms to Percy that they are truly in danger from the adversary. He rushes to “wake up” his two companions, warns them to not eat anymore of the lotus flowers, and together they flee the casino.

I have thought of this scene often. What amazing parallels it has to our day. The adversary, Satan, desires for us to become stuck in the ways of the world. Distracted by all that is fun and unimportant. He wants us to forget God and his son, Jesus Christ. He does not want us to put our focus on Him. He wants us to forget the mission we came to do.

I want to tell you today, if you don’t have your focus on Christ, you will only feel of His love here a little there a little. It became for me, not enough anymore to have it so infrequently. This world is so tumultuous that I needed to feel my Savior’s love constantly.

I began to think of Him frequently. I began to learn of His teachings. With the same desire I would use to scroll through shows or movies to watch on Netflix, I spent reading and searching in my scriptures.

I tricked the algorithm on my social media feed. Now whenever I get on a social media platform, I am feed spiritually by music, talks and posts about Christ. I no longer scroll out of boredom and lose time to my feed. Everything that is on there is spiritually uplifting and testimony building.

I am often inspired to share something I find on my social media feed with someone else. When I do this, I am sharing the love of God with another child of God.

I looked for music that fills my soul with love and uplifting. Most of it is about Him. There are so many Christian songs created by very talented and inspired musicians. Music speaks to me deeply. Especially when I am in a dark place.

I learned to pray throughout my day. Satan wants us to over complicate everything so that it seems too hard. God makes everything simple for us. Just think to Him. To Them. There is a place and a time for formal prayers. It is okay to just have a prayer in your heart and thoughts to Them throughout your day. They know that we are busy and cannot kneel every time that we need to talk to Him. He accepts your effort.

I have been thinking about this post since you wrote your question, Evelyn. I hope that you can feel His love for you as your read this. It is there. I feel His love for you. He suffered in Gethsemane so that you could bear the pains and sorrows of this world. He created Atonement so that you could be forgiven of the mistakes that you will make and return to live with Him and our Heavenly Parents. The plan was created out of great love for you and for all of your heavenly siblings.

It was so hard for Christ in the Garden of Gethsemane. I have no doubt that when he asked for this cup to pass from Him, He thought of you, and He collected every bit of strength that he had left to finish the work. He could not, would not give up on you. No matter the cost. He loves you that deeply. And He succeeded in his task.

On the cross, He said, “It is finished,” He bowed His head, and His spirit left Him. He hung on until the end. He is the ultimate example of enduring until the end. I cannot imagine how hard that was. He even felt the loss of God with Him. “My God, my god, why hast thou forsaken me?”

He knows what it is like to feel disconnected from Heaven. Even He felt that. He felt it all. All that we feel on this earth, in this mortal life. He knows you. Your loneliness. Your thoughts and feelings of inadequacy. You are enough!

This last weekend, I was able to hear from a General Authority from The Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-Day Saints, Elder K. Brett Nattress. I got to hear him speak three different times in three separate meetings. It was powerful. The most amazing thing about hearing him speak, was the spirit he spoke, taught, and testified with. It was there. There is no mistaking when the Spirit of God is in the room.

He asked, “What think ye of Christ? Whose son is He?” He asked the people in the congregation to share what they think of when they think of Christ.

There were many answers: He is love. He is acceptance. One woman said, “He will not leave me alone in that dark place.”

He also asked us: When did we know that the Savior lives? When did we know that we knew? This question was for silent reflection.

He gave us an invitation. He invited us to in the next 48 hours share with someone how you feel about the Savior.

I love this invitation, for I have learned that whenever I share something that I believe in about the Gospel, the Spirit confirms the truth of it to me. It is very sacred to me. It helps my testimony of Christ grow every time.

Then he asked us this question: What would you do, if it was the Second Coming and He was just out in the foyer of our church building?

The responses were beautiful. One man said, “I would know that I am enough.” I love this comment. I don’t always feel that way, but when I feel the love of my Savior, I feel it completely.

Someone else said they would feel relief. Another said they would tell him, “Welcome back, we have been waiting for you.” Someone else said, “He understands my flaws.”

My favorite response was, “I would run to Him!” I love this answer. I really hope that my moment with Christ is not around crowds of others. I think that if it was just me or a small group of people, I would indeed run to Him. I think that if it was a larger group of people, I would wait patiently and lovingly for those that need to see Him first to have their moment.

I can say this because I have my moments with him constantly throughout my day. I know Him and I am learning to know Him more and more each day. I can wait patiently for those that needed Him desperately to have their divine embrace and feel the love of Him.

How do you find this connection with someone that is not here with you in person on the earth? Matthew 7:7-8 has an answer for us:

7. Ask, and it shall be given you; seek, and ye shall find, knock, and it shall be opened unto you.

8. For every one that asketh receiveth; and he that seeketh findeth; and to him that knocketh it shall be opened.

Let us break this down a bit. Ask is to have faith and ask God in prayer. Given you means you will have revelation from God. Seek is to study and meditate. Find is for you to find your answers through that study. God will confirm it to you. Knock is learning. Learn and it will become clear to you (opened unto you).

A lot of this will happen as you study the scriptures. In our current day is one of the best times to study the scriptures. There are so many study guides and helps to understand the culture and language of the time they were written in. The most important tool is prayer.

As you hone these skills, you will become better at understanding them. You will not reach for the study guide as much or the dictionary to understand the meanings of certain words. As you put for effort, God will give to you what you are ready to understand.

He always meets our efforts. He wants us to come to Him. He will never make us. It has to be our choice. That is why we came here after all.

Evelyn, I truly hope that in reading this post today, you felt the love of the Savior for you. I have felt it without question as I have written today. I hope that you feel it more frequently on your journey. I know that if you seek, you will find.

He will show you the way.